Don't Cry

Dearest,

When was the last time you cried yourself to sleep? Not that I long for you to be emotionally distressed, enough for you to shed tears… Remember, you used to tell me, “Such a beautiful release it is to strum one’s emotional strings; to bathe naked one’s soul with the swelling eyes.”

Yes, it truly is human nature. Mama’s baby cries hard upon his first choking gasp of air—and I guess, it pays, sometimes to be mummy’s teary eyed grown-up. It brings back a sense of a new beginning—much like a re-birth.

But it’s hard isn’t it?

In this contemporary time when many are in physical, emotional, spiritual, social and even internal pain, and many thus find a sense of comfort in sobbing, shouldn’t I be thankful that I haven’t had found reason to cry?

As I grow older, I feel more fortified from the “sea of emotions” that I once attributed to life. Innocence lost leads to numbing out, I guess. It’s no pretty picture, but right now it is what I see.

I feel like singing now:
Hush little baby don’t you cry, mama’s go’nna buy you a Mocking Bird.
And if that Mocking Bird don’t mock, mama’s gonna buy you a diamond ring.

Matter more than ideas has concerned me a lot lately. Not that I am focusing my energies into making myself rich. No sir! But, I hadn’t had the luxury of time to breathe-in figments. I miss doing this.

I remember myself cry every time I finish writing something which truly reflects my ideas-- but not lately. No time even to write. How come, when I have owed much from this art, why have I deliberately allowed myself to find a block… a valid reason not to attempt writing.

The obsession of material concerns have taken control over subliminal forms of compulsion: crying, writing, deep-breathing, praying… keeping attuned with self. I truly miss my self.

Perhaps, it’s not just me. Maybe even you, my dearest, had you had time to cry whilst someone goes to buy you something so you could just hush… Be a child. Pretend that your diamonds do not glitter. Cry your heart out.

Four days have passed since I sprained my left foot ankle. Finally, it is no longer swollen. Tomorrow I am back to work. Am I glad to have slipped on the bathroom floor, though I didn’t cry because of pain, I was forced to have time to myself… and finally, write. But not cry =)

Haywired

After 2 days of confining myself in the house alone, theoretically. Mom has gone to Hatyai, Dad and Bro out the house for the whole day so I am basically home alone. Kept myself busy, cleaning up the house, washed the clothes but dang! It took only 1 and a half hour! While taking the laundry upstair, I knocked my forehead. *Ouch* It it not bruised but reddish..

The rest of the day seems very gloomy and emotional to me. I started messaging myself. Yes, myself and I accidentally sent it to a pal. I thought it was lucky that she was sleeping and did not pay much attention to that message but she remembered it later at night and asked me what is happening. No big deal, I thought. Just some idiotic playing with message. =D

Okay, it is time for making up stories and get away from it. I seems to be good at getting away from situation.

Sometimes, I feel that maybe it is right not to be too close to anyone. At least, if there is something happen to me, people around will not cry so much. ^^ But what I did seems to be conflicting with what I thought.

Nah, I guess my brain really got haywired already. @@

Today

by Unknown

Today while the blossoms still cling to the vine
I'll taste your strawberries
I'll drink your sweet wine
A million tomorrows shall all pass away
Then I'll forget all the joy that is mine today

I'll be a dandy and I'll be a rover
You'll know who I am by the songs that I sing
I'll feast at your table
I'll sleep in your clover
Who cares what tomorrow shall bring

Today while the blossoms still cling to the vine
I'll taste your strawberries
I'll drink your sweet wine
A million tomorrows shall all pass away
Then I'll forget all the joy that is mine today

I can't be contended with yesterday's glory
I can't live on promises winter to spring
Today is my moment and now is my story
I'll laugh and I'll cry and I'll sing

Today while the blossoms still cling to the vine
I'll taste your strawberries
I'll drink your sweet wine
A million tomorrows shall all pass away
Then I'll forget all the joy that is mine today

Click on the play button

Bad Pre-Holiday

Work when New Year is approaching is kinda great. I am able to catch a few episodes of Heroes and slacking around the office. Everyone were so free and walking around the office. Too bad my morning was spoilt by a brainless Singaporean. He doesn't even know what is the meaning of "preloaded". I heard that he called earlier and got one of our newbie. He held on the line for 45 minutes and refused to hang up just for a small matter.

He complained that the new laptop he received was installed with the wrong operating system. It has Windows Vista instead of Windows XP. So, checked his call history and no ticket was raised for new PC installation. Told him that Vista was preloaded in every new laptop purchased and HP/Agilent image will be installed after he raised a ticket for it. He said HP services sucks and don't care if it's HP/Agilent's policy and insisted to speak with the manager. I passed the call to one of the CLM girl. Poor her. ^^ My AM team lead came and asked us if we wanna escalate him. We went "Banzai!" To compensate the bad morning. I had KFC for lunch with a bunch of agents.

Continued with my Heroes after lunch and people are still free to walk around. Each and everyone came to my place always asked me the same question - "What are you watching?" So, I came up with this great idea..

Great idea, huh? =D

I am a Wild Boar!!

I got this cute calendar in Excel format from a friend. It is very convenient in the sense of you have every information that a typical Chinese would want to have but not convenient to bring it around. It's in MS Excel format, remember??

They have this zodiac analysis too. Cool! Since this year is my year. Yeah, I'm a PIG! Thought of checking mine out. Don't bother asking me to translate. I know how to read but not translating.. Go find someone else.

个性：耿直无弯曲，能向直中取，不可曲中求，心如洁白，无雅量，外观稳重，内心刚毅，好财，好批评他人是非，无忍耐性，依靠性强，不善交际。

特征：年轻时，对家庭不满，但心里却乃敬爱双亲，性格诚实，自视甚高，常吃亏，亥年出生的晚年都很幸福，中年以后能慢慢发挥才能，需注意呼吸及消化系统的疾病。

真诚正直，凡事认真实行，人缘极佳。性情率直，心地善良，个人主义至上，内心刚毅慷慨大方，直接了当，正义感强烈，光明磊落，不拘小节，天真浪漫。Ｏ型猪年生的人思想单纯天真，不会与人斤斤计较，肖猪的人绝对不是诈欺和出卖朋友的人，坦诚真意很能容忍。与人没有多大的竞争，除非在万不得已的情况下不会说谎，举止正当态度和善。肖猪者智力丰富求知欲强，慷慨大方，直接了当。朋友友谊长久，不交则已，一但成为挚友便会对朋友照顾得无微不至。肖猪人乐天主义，不需要过份操劳便可维持生计。女性非常著重家庭，有计划地安排家务。最能容忍别人讥笑，逆来顺受。

好睡重眠心地善良，对人没有猜疑而常受骗上当。好批评不善交际。性情燥脾气粗暴而容易冲动，缺乏沟通协调精神。女性好猜疑嫉妒气短浅见。固执俗气，贪玩乐无进取心。属猪人最大恶劣个性就是会存心捣蛋、恶作剧，决不会中途而废，一定会弄到别人一败涂地方肯罢休。

Source: http://astro.xeyo.com/xing/shengqiao/zhu.htm

Actually, I don't really understand what it says. Haha.. =D Whatever, not all are accurate though. I never know I am an optimistic person, I am always a pessimistic one..

Just When I Needed You Most

by Richard Van Warmer

You packed in the morning, I stared out the window
And I struggled for something to say
You left in the rain without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way.

But I miss you more than I missed you before
And now where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me just when I needed you most
Left me just when I needed you most.

Now most every morning, I stare out the window
And I think about where you might be
I've written you letters that I'd like to send
If you would just send one to me.

'Cause I need you more than I needed before
And now where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me just when I needed you most
Left me just when I needed you most.

You packed in the morning, I stared out the window
And I struggled for something to say
You left in the rain without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way.

Now I love you more than I loved you before
And now where I'll find comfort, God knows
'Cause you left me just when I needed you most
Oh yeah, you left me just when I needed you most
You left me just when I needed you most.

Click on the play button

Christmas is Here!

Merry Christmas everyone!!

I got my first Christmas present last night from mum.. Not one oh.. but two!! Well, it can be considered as a surprise though. She called and asked my whereabout. The mobile network at my house sucks and I had to go out the porch for a clearer reception. She told me she is heading to the Curve with friends for celebration and suddenly her car appeared in front of me! @^$#!& She was laughing so happily for bluffing me oh.. She handed 2 wrapped gifts to me and we headed out for dinner as I had yet to have mine. The celebration with her friends was a bluff. It was ended before she came. =.=" It was really a surprise as to how I surprised her, I guess.

Is it a tradition to open Christmas gifts after the clock hitting 12? Hmm, nevermind since I am not a religious kinda person (I'm not a Christian, by the way)

My X'mas pressie..

zZzz

You don't expect people to work on weekend.. except for people in my field lah.. I am not expecting any calls today anyway. I started my day with Letter from Iwo Jima, halfway then continue with One Piece. I had Bleach and Naruto with me as well but didn't seem to have the mood to watch them. Then, did test calls for the rest of the day.

Full screen!!

See how relax I am during weekend.. I wished I had bring my pillow =D

Usually weekends are only *reserved* to support US people who are working from home or some lifeless Malaysian and Singaporean who are rushing things last minute before holiday. Well, this is normal when Christmas and New Year are approaching. Well, it is a long holiday by the way. That's why I can do that!! xD

Christmas Presents

Do you always know what to get for who as Christmas gifts?

I must admit, I sucks at this! I have hard time thinking and looking. Plus, I was working night shifts for 2 weeks and was too darn tired to go shopping. Managed to get something on Tuesday and today, I have received my stuffs which I had ordered on the net. Am "studying" how these things work. Wondering if I should wrap it in its original or "modified" state.. ??

Anyway, hopefully they will like it! =D

Wishing everyone a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!

Future...

I want to continue with my studies.. Two choices:

1. Go for Masters
2. Go for degree of something that I wanted to do in the beginning

Two choices should be easy to come with a conclusion, right? Doesn't seems so in my case.

First. My current work. Digged some info from my colleague last week. I have to get permission from my leads and employer before I even register for a course. Well, I am on a rotational shift job and in order for me to study part-time, I have to request for permanent day shift.

Second. I have always planned to do Masters oversea. Feel kinda pointless to do Masters locally. Well, since I was not able to do my last year degree oversea, at least for my Masters. Ya?

Third. Something that I wanted to do in the beginning - Architecture. I gave up architecture because of my SPM results and took up something that I thought it would be useful. It would seems too late to start Architecture study now at 24 years old. Consulted my friends who is in the same industry. One asked me to go for it before I regret it the second time. Another one adviced me against it. It would take me 10 years to get certified as an Architect. It shouldn't matter, I guess. Recognition is nothing compare to something I wished to do, right?

SO???

I have came up with some sort of plan, in fact. I will approach them and tell them my desire to further study. If they are not going to let me go permanent day shift, I will quit after CNY and go full-time study!

That's it!

Escapade to Bali

I am planning an escapade to Bali next year. Wonder if I'll see camels on Bali beach then..

Cherishing Weekends

Saturdays and Sundays were always an activity-less days for me, just another boring, staying-at-home. I do like weekends though. I can sleep all I want and do whatever I want. =D

Ever since I have started this job, especially when I am scheduled to work on weekends or night shift (where my weekends are shorter by half a day), I tend to cherish my weekends more than before. I mean, I am trying to enjoy that two days more and I am not trying to put the situation to a "end-of-the-world" situation either. Well, weekends are the times where you enjoy the company of friends and family, the time when they will be around listen to your rantings and complaints. (pst! I think they have had enough of those already!)

I am working on night shift this week. Hopefully I will get morning the next but if I do, I will only have 1 and 1/2 weekends. Strictly speaking, it'll be only a day. That 1/2 will be used for sleeping! =D

*** Out of topic ***

Do you think I am depressed? Someone is saying I am and I've started to feel the same!! Well, based on what I have written over here, I might and might not be depressed. I am just sad. You know, "sad"? Well, maybe I am. Hmm... I'm gonna get a place for some self-reflection moments.

...

Short Off

Working days seem so long and time during off day doesn't seems to be enough. So fast, it is now almost 6pm..

Today, I've watched Spice Girls' latest single - Headlines (Friendship Never Ends). The song is nice but the video's not. I mean, there is no meaning at all. Everyone was just posing especially VB, with her forever-the-same-stupid pose. She can't sing, for God's sake. *No offense* I like Mel C and Mel B though.. ;-p

This was a performance for Children in Need. If you wanna watch the actual video, try here. VB's too suck to be streamed here. xD The video'd be very perfect without VB, don't you think so?

Then I browsed through Youtube for their videos and stumbled upon an ads for Tesco. Kinda funny..

I like Mel C and Mel B's parts. Wahahaha =D

First Working Weekend

Today's my first "working" weekend. How would I describe my day today? I am thinking whether my life had signed a contract with "boring" long time ago. Well, it was boring. I can continue with my Grey's Anatomy and updating my resume. I can tell you, update resume is a very long process..

Basically, I am being paid for watching Grey's Anatomy.. ;-p Not bad but shifts are very bad. Haha..

Bad Off Day

WHY??? Why are all the sicknesses has to come on my off day?? Darn! This morning I was caught with sore throat, headache and flu.. @@

It is bad.. definitely bad!! T_T

Where do all the lonely people come from?

Imagine you freak out, come to the end of your tether, can’t hold it together anymore.
Where would you go?
Imagine you enter a way of being and experiencing the world, which other people call mad, and your nearest and dearest can’t cope with your presence any longer.
To whom would you turn?
Imagine you are out of your wits, completely gone over the hill, you've lost it, plunged into the wild waves of the unknown.
What would you need?

"Suppose," said R.D. Laing (1927 – 1989) "you do not want to be jolted out of it, but believe that this is something you want to go through. Who will allow you to go through it? Where will you be allowed to plumb the depth of your agony, despair, bewilderment, confusion, perplexity, until a new beginning dawns? No one is asking you to, if you don’t want to. But just suppose you felt you have to."

Imagine there are folks who will listen to you, respect you, take you seriously, understand your weird experiences, language and gestures, and can make sense, together with you, of your disturbing experience?

Imagine there is human warmth, camaraderie, tolerance, forbearance, a refreshing and new consistency in bonding to your emerging vulnerable true self?

40 years ago, the Beatles asked the world a simple question. He wanted to know where all the lonely people came from..

Aah, look at all the lonely people
Aah, look at all the lonely people

Eleanor Rigby picks up the rice in the church where a wedding has been
Lives in a dream
Waits at the window, wearing the face that she keeps in a jar by the door
Who is it for?

All the lonely people
Where do they all come from ?
All the lonely people
Where do they all belong ?

Father McKenzie writing the words of a sermon that no one will hear
No one comes near.
Look at him working. Darning his socks in the night when there's nobody there
What does he care?

All the lonely people
Where do they all come from?
All the lonely people
Where do they all belong?

Aah, look at all the lonely people
Aah, look at all the lonely people

Eleanor Rigby died in the church and was buried along with her name
Nobody came
Father McKenzie wiping the dirt from his hands as he walks from the grave
No one was saved

All the lonely people
Where do they all come from?
All the lonely people
Where do they all belong?

*snapped*

Had 2 movies in a row; Stardust at 3:20pm, finished at 5:35pm and then rushed to Bee Movie at 5:30pm but started around 15 minutes later. Bee Movie's boring.. @@
After the movie, planned to have steamboat at Menjalara but was kinda packed so we settled for western food instead.

Had a nice chat about work and thanks for snapping me back to reality. I'd really need those help around. Maybe I am being too demanding and tend to take things for granted. Ought to start thinking about the good side of the things I am having now but just give me some more time. xD

To you-know-who,
I am not sure if I am getting a bit stressed out or just getting plain out-of-my-mind, thanks for being there. You advised and it got into my head but I am not sure if it is able to "stay" there. xD You've got your point and I've got it too. You know I am getting insane and thanks for bearing with my insanity. ^^

Enough of thanks and now it's a sorry. Sorry to freaked you out with my "damn-serious" question last night. Not sure if I am gonna ask it again in the future but if I do, hope it doesn't piss you off. xD

Thanks a million~ ^^

Boring but a relax Friday

Today's Friday, after Deepavali break. I had expected a very busy day because most people will be coming back from holiday and expected a lot of outages. Haha..

Surprisingly, I am able to watched the whole "Evan Almighty" and "The Bourne Ultimatum" and there are enough time for me to catch a few of those Hong Kong's classic movies.. You know, Stephen Chow's movies.. Blasting MP3 to the maximum while biting some snacks..

BORING~~

Pre-Deepavali

Yesterday was a "red" day. Calls were flooding in like nobody's business. I am feeling my life had been shortened by a few years. x_X Why "red"? The "Agent Board" was in red for the most of the day!

The thing highlighted in red is the "Agent Board" but it was taken today so no red. ^^

Today's calls.. so far so good. I guess most of the Indians, Malaysian and Singaporean are in the holiday mood now and no time to call us.

Expired

What comes up to your mind when you see the words expire, expiry, expiration, etc? Food expired, your discount voucher is gonna reach its expiry date or my even my token card?? *haha*

I think my lifespan will be expired soon.. T_T
I AM SO SO F8CKING TIRED! ><
I WANT MY BED... NOW!
I WANT MY LUNCH.. but nothing nice to eat around the office.
and shit, I HAVE TO WORK ON WEEKEND! *grrr*

Ohaiyo~ Irassaimase

What a great thing to start my day..

The first call I got was a Japanese lady, Mikako-san. *hell, what is japanese agents are doing???* Lucky she did not go "Ohaiyo gozaimasu~"

Then after lunch, this Jap lad called, Takayuki Hando. His name reminds me of takoyaki (octopus balls)

*yum yum*

Well, at least my last call was a pleasant one. He is a nice Indian chap. xD Too bad, I can't end my shift with "Arigatou gozaimasu" and "Sayonara"

Feeling Down

Ever since that day, I have been feeling down. Very, very down. Don't feel like going anywhere or doing anything. Internet was inaccessible. Locked myself in the room for whole day. Lying on the bed, screening my SMS'es and suddenly tears rolled. T_T

Pathetic and useless, huh?

Nocturnal - Bad!

Third day of night shift - terrible toothache, got permission to go home early at 12am. The next day, got fever and MC. Then the next day, still fever and MC again. T_T

I will be on night shift again next week. At first, I thought my team lead had suggested to put us on night shift for a week. Before I signed the contract, I was told before and after that there would be a week night shift in two months. After I called my team lead to talk about my shift thing, she said there was no such thing. As I can see from our so-called Christmas tree (shift roster), there are roughly 2 weeks of night shift with different start time. Feel cheated. ><

Not trying to complain here.. but this is making my life go haywired and definitely not the type of live I am seeking.

On the phone interview by my manager, he asked what shift I would prefer and I honestly told him AP shift (7am-7pm) and said no worries, can always apply for permanent shift afterward. I doubt it now since they are telling me different things before and after employing. @@

Getting Nocturnal

Will be on night shift for the whole next week. My AM -TL, Joanna gave me two choices - 8:00pm or 11:00pm. Well, I've chosen the first one as I feel a little weird on going to work at 11:00 NIGHT. @@ So basically I'll be working from 8:00pm to 5:00am the next day.

It would be a totally different thing for me, working at night. No more traffic congestion, no more waking up at 6:00am. Bad thing is.. no more lunch! T_T Have to plan what "bento" to bring to work already. Well, at least I don't have to sleep so early on Sunday night. ^^

But I have yet to tell my dad about this. I've only mentioned to my mom that I'll be on night shift for a few days next week. Initially, Joanna had suggested to put me and another guy on night and try out the US calls. So, I thought she meant "one or two nights". I was like dumbfounded when she approached me and said, "So, what time you wanna have for next week?" and I was like, "WHOLE week, you mean?"

Nevertheless, it is something to try. Kinda looking forward to it but at the same time.. I'm mourning! T_T

Salvaging My Birthday

Today is my birthday again! Well, this one is according to the Chinese (lunar) calendar which fall on the 25th day of 8th month (8月25日). It is my chance to salvage my birthday 4 days ago. Gotta enjoy to the fullest and by "full" I am talking about a full 24 hours.

Plan, plan first... Hmm..

To Michelle: Have you think of where to bring me to???? ^^

Going LIVE

Had my final test last Friday, got my result on Monday. Hahaha.. I got 69.5%, barely passed. Another guy passed the test as well. The other two had to resit the test. Poor chaps. My team leader had assigned me to a senior for "buddy" sessions, where I'll be listening to the calls he get and observe.

Had been buddying for the past.. well, so far.

My observations:

There are differences between users from different regions, AP, AM (Americas) and EMEA (Europe, Middle East, Africa). AP users are more dependent, less questions, don't mind getting muted for more than 30 minutes and a lot more fussier. Americans are somehow opposite of AP. They are more independent. They would researched first by Google'ing, it can't work then they call us. During the process of troubleshooting, they would like to be told of what was going on and prefer conversation instead of muting or holding them. Their compliments come as fast as complaints. EMEA people are mixture of AP and AM. Nice people though (excluding some AP users). ><

Best Birthday.. EVER!

Today is my 24th birthday.

Normal "low-profile" birthday. Celebrated with several friends and family, received several birthday sms'es and mms, no gifts though. Haha. It's not the important part. The most important part is the thought. I hereby sincerely thank to people who wished me except Michelle where I had to send her a message telling that she had forgotten my birthday though she claimed she want to give me a surprise by being the last one to wish me and I had spoilt the fun. My first half of the day was quiet and peaceful and I was expecting a better and happy second half.

Too bad, the above was not the things that make my birthday this year's the best in my whole life. Someone chose to did something that I would consider in the wrong time, wrong day, wrong moment and whatever. This "something" can be done on any other perfect day but maybe the issue was being too great and had to be done on this very day.

To you-know-who-you-are, million, billion and possibly trillion of thanks for making this birthday my best and most unforgettable birthday ever. I do not think there will be any moments, celebrations or occasions that could possibly beat today.

Somewhere in the future, this post could be in the middle of no where in this cyberspace. No matter where it fly to, I couldn't possibly forget about this day, ever!

THANKS!

Somehow, the birthday had a lot of good things but too bad the bad thing overshadowed the good ones. GOD DAMN IT! THIS IS SUPPOSED TO BE A VERY HAPPY POST! >_<

UPDATE (2/10/07 12:39PM):
Michelle actually postponed her surprise to the very early of next morning. Haha! ^^
Thanks ya! Quick think of what to treat me on Friday's night after work! xD

To Lynette - Thanks ya! xD

Super-weekend Mood

Have you ever had a training that is 3 minutes long?

I had 2 trainings today, "Print Issues" and "OmniPOD". The first one lasted for less than 10 minutes while the second training lasted for 3-4 minutes! But it's true that OmniPOD is a very damn straight-forward issue. The SME that gave the training just went through the "crucial" parts of the 4-page material and ended with "Any questions? If no, I go out ah, ok?" We were like dumbfounded but happy anyway. We hung around until 6:00pm.

My brain is suddenly being stuffed with sooooooo many acronyms and names.. OVSD, ILC, CLM, ABS, CDP, HPIT, WRM, ANT, RAT, Octopus, Pony, dog, cat and all those animals........... more to come... @@

That was the last day of my second week in HP..

*psst*
Kidding about the dogs and cats.. but Octopus and Pony are for real. xD

First Touch

Finally I got to lay my hands on the system since I've started working last Monday. Basically what I've did was to create my profile into the system, set up my Outlook, share drive, Jabber and Omega (a HR related module that record our working time, MCs, leaves, etc). As soon as my Outlook was set up, 68 unread e-mail messages were waiting for me. =.=" Took me some times to finish all the mails.

It's been a week I have been MIA from my MSN presence. Tried logging into my account. Got surprised as it doesn't let me send and receive messages until I register my MSN e-mail address into this Symantec IM Security thingy and will gives reminder everytime that every messages sent through HP network will be subjected to screening and monitoring for certain authorities. Sound scary. @@ Don't care lah, since everyone here is using it and it's not like we will be getting our hands onto some confidential information.

At least today was a bit different from previous days.

Half-life

Almost half of my remaining life was gone.

I had a monthly meeting for Agilent agents this morning which started at 9:00am. I was actually feeling gloomy and sleepy when I reached there but was awaken by the smell of delicious McDonald's breakfast. Those were actually bought by dunno-who as our breakfast. *yummy* Feeling happy for the rest of the day. This was the day where we, the newbies were introduced to the rest of the agents (minus those night-shifters). They are going to Cherating for holiday! *envy* Of course we are not able to join as they had planned this way before we came in. Nevermind, there will always be other time. ;-p

*switched to sleepy+tired mode*

Attend my cousin, Alex's wedding dinner at Cyberview Lodge. Very, very tired and sleepy. (Sorry, ya) Dinner ended at around 11:00pm and reached home at midnight. Straight hit the bed! *zzzz*

The World of Jacky Cheung

It was the best concert among those I have went to. Well, he is supposed to be the greatest singers in the world of Chinese entertainment.

Set off from my office at 6:30pm and was the last one to go among the 3 cars but the first one to arrive, starving, tired and sleepy. Had a short nap in the car while waiting for the rest of them and while waiting for my dinner. Made it in just in time. Thankful to God, it did rained but not heavy. At one point, some spectators began pulling out their umbrella and others had started shouting asking them to keep it because it was blocking the view of spectators behind. Luckily, it stopped.

It is hard to describe the excitement here. Got get a DVD when it's out, original one of course! xD

Day 2 @ HP

Don't worry.. I'm not going to list down my everyday in HP. Today, work starts at 9:00am but don't know why I woke up at 6, out at 6:50 and reached the carpark at 7:20pm. =.="

Since I was a bit sleepy so I've decided to take a short nap. Set my alarm to ring at 8:30am, catch a shuttle and off to office. I think I was lucky then. I woke up 15 minutes earlier and noticed the dark sky and HP people waiting outside. Lazy to carry an umbrella, I quickly grabbed my things, out of the car and waited along for the shuttle. A while later, it came and as soon as I got in, rain started to drop.

Today was a bit not-boring than yesterday. We had soft-skill training and some teasing and drilling attacks, etc. The day passed a little quicker than yesterday but we left at 6:10pm.

Yeah, congestion free.. except for that TTDI - Sri Damansara stretch.. x_X

Yet, another day..

Day 1 @ HP

First day of work. Feeling? BORING! I guess first days are always like that. Other than boring, it was not a nice day actually. It rained and I had to walked 10 minutes from the carpark to the office and trying to find my way there.

8:20 am - Reached the HR office.
8:40 am - A girl from HP came to "collect" us (another 3 guys).
8:45 am - Brought us to the security center for our temporary tag and photo taken for our permanent tag (should have told me earlier.. so I can dress nicely.. wahaha xD kidding)
9:00 am - Into the department and a small meeting room.

From that onward until 12pm, what we did was basically sit, read and read more..

12:00 pm - Lunch time. Had the worst nasi lemak in my whole life so far.
1:00 pm - Continue with more and more reading.

Supposed to have a trainer but due to some flood or something, can't come.

5:00 pm - Started counting down to 5:30
5:30 pm - All rushed back home.

Conclusion: MY BUTT ACHE! x_x

Holiday / Last Day

Holiday
Brother gave me a call in the evening, telling me about a very good offer for a 4D3N to Bali and asked me if I want to go along. Feeling happy and excited, I texted those I want to ask along. I've waited, waited and waited. Finally, phone rings but it was Brother called to ask me how. I told him that no one reply me yet. "Nevermind", he said and asked me to wait for another while. He'll call back. After 30 minutes, still no reply and Brother called again. I told him, "No one entertain me." He just laughed and then we hung up.

I know that I should've call them straight to ask but I don't like the feeling to disturb people on their perfect Sunday. I've also realised, planning to do something with more than 2 persons is indeed a challenge. Every person has to try to compromise with each other and not all can do that.

I think I have to start planning a holiday on my own. ^^

Last Day
I'd consider today is my last "free" day. Tomorrow would be my first day working in three months. No more sleeping until 11am or 12pm. No more having lunch with friend. No more daydreaming.

...

Nothing more to say. Adios~

Mixed Feeling

Will start working next Monday after freeloading at home for 3 months. As I've said in the earlier post, it's a shift-based job and depend on which region I will be assigned to, I'll have to follow their working hours. If necessary, need to work on weekend too. I have another 3 days left to enjoy my freeloading moment before rejoining into the workforce. Will miss those time even though it's not advisable to do so. Haha. xD

I'm having a mixed feeling from the day I had put my "tortoise" (in case you're clueless, it's a pun for 'signature') on that paper...

I feel eager.
Why? Curious, perhaps.. about the new environment, new people, new place and new responsibilities.

I feel nervous and scared.
It will be a totally different working routine and it does really test my level of adaptability.

I feel sad.
Goodbye weekends, goodbye nightlife (my type of nightlife: movie, yamcha and of course mahjong! Haha, just kidding) and goodbye normal life.

I feel happy.
It's so obvious.. I'VE GOT A JOB, FINALLY!

A week before this, I actually hoped that 10th September would never come. A few of my friends told me that it's something worth a try and it's not that bad as I think. I'd disagree at first maybe because their priorities were not the same as mine. I'm not going to place mine here but all I could say is career has not always been in the last spot. Haha. xD

Lately, I've learnt to accept the fact. I've signed it and there is no way I could overturn that agreement. I've gotta pay them a month of my salary if I resign within the first year of my employment. Unless someone is willing to sponsor me. =.=" If there is really this someone out there, do you mind to send me a mail?? ............ Just kidding. That's life, full of parts and parcels, ups and downs.

No Life...

I have a good news and a bad news (well, at least for me)..

Good news:
Yeah! Finally, I've been employed!! Just accepted an offer from a MNC. Offer's good.

Bad news:
Well, it's in support line and obviously depend on which regions I'll be supporting, I'll need to work on weekdays as well although it's a 5-day work job and on a rotational shifts as well. As my future team lead defined it - "weird hours".

Definitely no life for me. T_T

Farewell Saturdays and Sundays~

Bypassing MegaUpload *Updated*

In my previous post long, long time ago, I've quoted a solution to *fix* MegaUpload's crap. Well, it doesn't work anymore. Here's an alternative, tested and it works. For Firefox only, though. Too bad for IE users. (IE sucks, btw)

REPEAT: FOR FIREFOX ONLY.

1. Go to https://addons.mozilla.org/en-US/firefox/addon/3843
2. Install MEGAUPLOAD SX.3.2 add-on.
3. Restart your Firefox browser.
4. Go to Tools > Megaupload 3 and click [Enabled] whenever you want to download something hosted on Megaupload.

Hope it works for you too! xD

Simple

Simple life.. No? Can't? Impossible?

Hmm..

Friendster Bug: Saviour of the Souls

Can't view your profile or your friend's? All you can see is a blank page with a few smileys and the word "Saviour of the Souls"?? Nothing changes no matter how many times you've hit the Refresh/Reload button/F5??

Well, most probably you've been hit by a bug. Fret not, just do the following which I've got from another profile:

1. Go to [Home] of your profile (must login)
2. Under [My Tools], select POST SHOUTOUT and click DELETE SHOUTOUT
3. Go to [Edit Profile] and scroll down to ADD MEDIA box. Delete everything and save.
4. Go to [My Profile] and voila! Done!

NOTE: Avoid visiting your friends' profile with posted shoutout as "style div display:none style". Otherwise, your profile will be infected again and you'll have to redo the steps above.

Booze Nite

Date: 11 Aug 2007
Location: Bukit Tinggi

The main purpose of going there is actually to get everyone drunk. Well, we were armed with a bottle of Chivas and Bacardi Limon, few bottles of mixers consisted of Coke and Sprite. 9 of us, 3 cars and loads of stuffs.

Reached the place at around 3-4pm as the check-in time is after 3. So, no point going up there so early. It's not like there are tonnes of things to do though. Had a short walk around and swan-admiring as our friend, Louise has never been to Bukit Tinggi and swans were like aliens to her. Two rounds of refreshing-pool game at the game center. After that, we were up to our room to prepare our steamboat dinner.

Our steamboat stuffs

While most of them were preparing the dinner, a few of us were armed with other people's Sony Ericsson and started beaming cute and funny ringtones for hours until the dinner started. After the dinner, I was getting headache. It happens everytime I go up to any highlands, be it Genting or Bukit Tinggi. @@ So I stayed in the room while the rest of them went down to have a drink and watched some shows.

We started drinking at around 12am the next day (12.08.2007) and we had special guests, Louise's friends. No idea what happened in between, Yike actually poured a glass of Chivas mixed with Bacardi to one of the poor lad.

Poor lad..

And I'd believed everyone of us were getting to pumped up, I actually poured him another *pure* Bacardi to the same lad.. Wahahaha *evil*

Someone's missing here..

Yeah! All downed.. and drunk!

Everything ended around 3:30 am and all headed to bed. It was not a very good night sleep for me. x_x

The next morning, we got up early for our paintball game at 8:30am. Too lazy to talk about that.

After the game, we went back to our room to pack our stuffs back to our cars. Initially, they had planned to go to Japanese Tea Farm but at the end, canceled. We got our cars and went downhill to find something for our lunch. Reached a village called Kampung Bukit Tinggi and I recalled my aunt has a shop there. Managed to find that place and we sat down to have our *refreshing and awakening* bak kut teh. Yum yum..

Terrible Ride + Errand Runner

Sent off my mom, bro + wife, grandma, Aunt Shirley and Uncle Low to LCCT for their flight to Cambodia this morning. I was at the back seat of my uncle's Wish, along with my friend who has an important mission - to escort me back from LCCT! Nah, the elders were a bit restless if I'm driving on my own back home from LCCT so I've dragged her along in the early of the morning. My bro was behind the wheel. Why it was a terrible ride? Thank God that we did not have our breakfast, both me and my friend. Otherwise, we would be throwing up all over the car. It was like riding a speedboat. @_@

Had our 'free' breakfast at the airport before heading back at around 2pm. Honestly, when I was behind the wheel, it felt nice! Managed to go past 140km/h steadily and doesn't feel like 140 at all. xD Imagine going that speed driving my Myvi or bro's Jazz... @_@

Feel damn sleepy but had to run those last-minute errands for them - cash payment @ Citibank, Jalan Ampang and cheque deposit @ Maybank. >_< There was a huge congestion in from of Sheraton Imperial. Then we discovered a TFT monitor and a cartoon VCD, The Three Stooges (老夫子). I must admit, I got a bit distracted watching it while driving.. Hahaha xD So nostalgic~

Sorry

I do not know it can cause so much misery and hard feeling to people around because of a mere sharing. Maybe it is right that friends do not have the responsibility to share the weight of our burden. I should’ve considered about the consequences before do the telling. What has been done is most possibly something that can’t be undone. You have my deepest and sincere apologies for causing you so much trouble and misery.

This might be the moment when I’d appeared to be very stubborn but you are still standing by my side, listening. I’ve done something selfishly without considering your feeling. Sometimes, I’d wish we were not friends in the first place. At least it could be better for you or rather, all of us. You may think this is ridiculous. After all, I am a selfish person in the first place. ;-p

Sorry to have put anyone of you in an awkward situation.

Depressed

Browsing and reading through some of the local blogs and stumbled upon an entry of a girl who committed suicide. She plunged to her death from Wisma Commonwealth in Bukit Jalil. She had bipolar disorder since her parent divorced in the 11ish. Rest in peace and may God bless her soul.

So, what the heck is bipolar disorder? I've realised how useful Google and Wikipedia is.

Bipolar disorder is a psychiatric condition defined as recurrent episodes of significant disturbance in mood. These disturbances can occur on spectrum that ranges from debilitating depression to unbridled mania. Individuals suffering from bipolar disorder typically experience fluid states of mania, hypomania or what is referred to as a mixed states in conjunction with depressive episodes. These clinical states typically alternate with a normal range of mood. The disorder has been subdivided into Bipolar I, Bipolar II and cyclothymia, with both Bipolar I and Bipolar II potentially presenting with rapid cycling.

Signs and symptoms of the depressive phase of bipolar disorder include: persistent feelings of sadness, anxiety, guilt, anger, isolation and/or hopelessness, disturbances in sleep and appetite, fatigue and loss of interest in usually enjoyed activities, problems concentrating, loneliness, self-loathing, apathy or indifference, depersonalization, loss of interest in sexual activity, shyness or social anxiety, irritability, chronic pain (with or without a known cause), lack of motivation, and morbid/suicidal ideation.

(read full text here)

For a period of time, I went through depression but it was not that serious until it entitled me a thought for committing suicide. I valued life and I respect it! (Note: it doesn't mean I'm condemning the last decision she made) My case, it's more like a season thingy. My depression mode would be switched on during a certain period of the year. Sad to say, if you do notice my previous entries, I think I'm in that mode already. ;-p

Ending own life is definitely not the right way to iron things out. Suicide needs a lot of courage. Why not use that courage to face those problems and find the solutions? Sometimes, things are easier said than done. In the end, no one will be able to help other than ourselves.

Value life.
Cherish life.
Respect life.

I Feel

I feel muted.
I feel isolated.
I feel depressed.
I feel conflicted.
I feel tired.
I feel confused.
I feel rejected.
I feel miserable.
I feel sorry.
I feel lost.
I feel helpless.
I feel worthless.
I feel hopeless.

But...

I feel blessed - to have a group of great friends,
I feel fortunate - to have met you,
I feel comfortable - being with you,
I feel grateful - for being around when I needed you.

Thank you to you-know-who-you-are.

Re-training?

It's 5 in the morning. Yes, I am still pretty awake at the moment. What can I do? Hmm, I have flipped through my photo albums and spotted those old-fashioned-looking class photo during my secondary school time. Also found a few taken during a demonstration during school's sport day. Looked pretty cool donning the uniform. \^o^/ That reminded me of a former junior of mine in our school's taekwondo club. We bumped into each other one day and he brought up the idea of getting back to training and perhaps take part in competition. I have been thinking about that since starting college but I am very, very reluctant to join that stupid club again.

Just a brief introduction to whoever reading this and feel clueless of what I am saying. The school's club was (not sure if it still is) under an external training academy (I called it this way to differentiate from club) which recruit students from schools nearby. Majority of the members were from Kepong Baru - with the most black belts, won the most medals and they happened to be the most cockiest bunch of arrogant idiots. They are the academy master's and instructors' favorite.

Back to the topic. That was why I said reluctant. Discussed with this junior for a while. I asked him to scout for training centers nearby and ask some of the former members if they are interested in getting back. If you get enough of people, I might consider about it. Well, what's the point of getting back when it's not enough of people, right? Another thing to consider - it has been 7 years since I've dropped from training. I'd guess my joints will be too rusty to even get a basic front kick, will they? o_O

(2000) The demo team

Ah.. my uniform and belt.. ^_^

A Mouse Parable

A mouse looked through the crack in the wall to see the farmer and his wife open a package.

"What food might this contain?" The mouse wondered - he was devastated to discover it was a mousetrap. Retreating to the farmyard, the mouse proclaimed the warning. "There is a mousetrap in the house! There is a mousetrap in the house!"

The chicken clucked and scratched, raised her head and said, "Mr. Mouse, I can tell this is a grave concern to you, but it is of no consequence to me. I cannot be bothered by it."

The mouse turned to the pig and told him, "There is a mousetrap in the house! There is a mousetrap in the house!"

The pig sympathized, but said, "I am so very sorry, Mr. Mouse, but there is nothing I can do about it but pray. Be assured you are in my prayers."

The mouse turned to the cow and said "There is a mousetrap in the house! There is a mousetrap in the house!"

The cow said, "Wow, Mr. Mouse. I'm sorry for you, but it's no skin off my nose."

So, the mouse returned to the house, head down and dejected, to face the farmer's mousetrap alone. That very night a sound was heard throughout the house -- like the sound of a mousetrap catching its prey. The farmer's wife rushed to see what was caught. In the darkness, she did not see it was a venomous snake whose tail the trap had caught. The snake bit the farmer's wife. The farmer rushed her to the hospital, and she returned home with a fever. Everyone knows you treat a fever with fresh chicken soup, so the farmer took his hatchet to the farmyard for the soup's main ingredient. But his wife's sickness continued, so friends and neighbors came to sit with her around the clock. To feed them, the farmer butchered the pig.

The farmer's wife did not get well; she died. So many people came for her funeral, the farmer had the cow slaughtered to provide enough meat for all of them. The mouse looked upon it all from his crack in the wall with great sadness.

Morale of the story:
So, the next time you hear someone is facing a problem and think it doesn't concern you, remember -- when one of us is threatened, we are all at risk.

"We are all involved in this journey called life. We must keep an eye out for one another and make an extra effort to encourage one another."

First Day Of My Life

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So I found the reason to stay alive
Try a little harder see the other side
Talking to myself, too many sleepless nights
Try to find a meaning to this stupid life

I don't want your sympathy
Sometimes i don't know who to be

[Chorus:]
Hey, what you’re looking' for?
No one has the answer, they just want more
Hey who's gonna make it back?
This could be the first day of my life

So I found the reason to let it go
Tell you that I’m smilin', but I still need to grow
Will I find salvation in the arms of love?
Will it stop me searching?
Will it be enough?

I don't want your sympathy
Sometimes I don't know who to be

Chorus

The first time to really feel alive
The first time to break the chain
The first time to walk away from pain

Chorus

Hey, what you're looking' for?
No one has the answer, they just want more (ooh, yeah)
Hey, who's gonna shine a light?
This could be the first day of my life

New Beginning

Got myself a new Mel C's latest album and had been listening to a particular song titled "The Moment You Believe" (video). As I've mentioned in the previous posts recently, a lot of things happened and prompted me to re-evaluate a lot of things around me.

It's a sudden thought of starting a new me. Forget and leave everything behind. Well, it's easily said and I've yet to get the courage to do so.

The Moment You Believe
Time to face what you're hiding from
Don't have to do this on your own
Together we are strong
We don't need anyone
No matter what they say
The time has come

I'm ready now to start a new beginning
With all our hopes and all our dreams
And I know the stars will shine for you and for me
From the moment you believe

I know they think that I'm no good for you
But we both know that they're wrong
Together we can fight
Show everyone we're right
I don't care what they say
Our time has come

I'm ready now to start a new beginning
With all our hopes and all our dreams
And I know the stars will shine for you and for me
From the moment you believe

When you believe there's nothing you can't overcome
When you believe the earth is brighter than the sun

I believe
(When you believe there's nothing you can't overcome)
(I believe)

I'm ready now to start a new beginning
With all our hopes and all our dreams
And I
I know the stars will shine for you and for me
From the moment you believe x2

Birthday

Birthdays are special occasions. It is the one day in a year when you can do no wrong and are made a fuss of and receive beautifully wrapped presents.

Birthdays can also be unofficially known as judgement day. It is the one day when we face many invisible juries, and with each "Happy Birthday!" wish received, we know we most likely have passed muster.

The closest to us will usually ring or text us at the stroke of midnight with streams of birthday wishes. If our phones remain silent and our mailboxes stay empty, well, then, it is the truest reflection of what people really think of us.

With the superior technology that we have these days, it is not difficult to make someone's birthday unforgettable.

- quoted from article "The Significance of Birthdays" by Xandria Ooi (The Star's Metro 18 July 2007)

The birthday celebration that I remembered most was the one I had on my 9th birthday. Forgot who brought up the idea, a few of my classmates were invited, family members and also neighbor's children. Had a few rounds of game specially "crafted" by my cousins, wonderful foods. After that, birthdays were usually celebrated with my parent and brother at home.

Celebrating friends' birthdays sound interesting but it not when celebrating my own. Perhaps I'm not used to getting so much attention from so many people. I would be very happy enough receiving text messages or even calls wishing me "Happy Birthday!" At least I know there are people who remember my birthday!

Alone

I have been made to realised one thing - communication is something very complicated and very hard to learn. Maybe it's not my thing after all.

Various things happened and I've beginning to consider a lot of stuffs. Future plans. Whether I have the guts to proceed with these plans or not is still a question that I've yet to get an answer.

Feel that nobody understand me. Part of the reason - I don't let people to understand me, some might says.

To you:

How I'd wish that you were here...

From me.

So, I think I'd be better left alone. ;-p

Better Alone

I understand your point of view letting me go
But I thought you had more faith
Everything I've done for you
You made the mistakes and now you throw this in my face
And I have worked so hard for you all of this time and you cast me aside
I understand your point of view

But I can't seem to get my head around
All the things that I feel good about always seem to disappear
And every time I think I've got this all worked out
Something chews me up and spits me out
But there's nothing left to fear
I'm better alone my dear

You couldn't pick a better time to give me the news
Why don't you kick me when I'm down?
I'd always believed in you
Defended your name but you have not been true
I gave you so much of my life I've compromised and you tell me goodbye
You couldn't pick a better time

And I can't seem to get my head around
All the things that I feel good about always seem to disappear
And every time I think I've got this all worked out
Something chews me up and spits me out
But there's nothing left to fear
I'm better alone my dear

I know I really should thank you for setting me free
It's really amazing the changes I'm starting to feel
It's not gonna be long till I'm fit and strong
Deliverance helped me heal still I wonder if you ever wish you still had me

Will I ever get my head around
All the things that I feel good about that always seem to disappear
When every time I think I've got this all worked out
Something chews me up and spits me out
But there's nothing left to fear
No No No

I can't seem to get my head around
All the things that I feel good about that always seem to disappear
No No

And every time I think I've got this figured out
Something screws me up and drags me down
But there's nothing left to fear
I'm better alone my dear

Bad Day Today

It's not a very good day for me today.

Last night was terrific - at Yike's wedding dinner. Although we did not get ourselves drunk that night since the bridegroom were so busy serving his friends and relatives + everyone need to work the next day. xD

This morning got up. Felt the heat, heavy head. After coming back from lunch, worst - sore throat! A while later - flu!

I feel like dying~ @_@

Telco Wars

I got to know these video from a forum. Very funny, really funny. Get a look for yourself.

First Episode
http://www.youtube.com/v/7IxgZvID6Zs

Second Episode
http://www.youtube.com/v/RIlITs8KxIA

Enjoy! xD

Touch~

I am not a greedy person. Even though I just got a Sony Ericsson Z610i but I can't help myself but got captivated but its beauty.. @_@

This is the latest first PDA launched after HTC acquired Dopod's PDA unit in Asia. It was said to be the world's first touch phone, which is similar to Apple's iPhone. Not very sure why they call it as the world's first when I thought Apple launched the iPhone first. The main attraction of this PDA, I think it would be the finger-scrolling thing.

Too bad, it does not support 3G. I would rather get Dopod D810 instead. At least I don't have to worry when I get lost middle of some where. Its appearance is no doubt very tempting. I would not consider Apple's iPhone either. Why?

1. Prints/scratch magnet
I'm not trying to say I am a hygenic person or whatever. I hate prints on my toys, you see. I'd doubt I will be scrolling with my thumbs (or other fingers) frequently on this device. I will be definitely very busy trying to wipe away all these prints and it prones to scratches too.

2. Specifications
It has almost the same specifications as my current Dopod's 818 Pro. Why spent extra on the same thing again?

3. 3G
I've been looking for 3G devices for a very long time. Well, I got a very nice, simple and basic Sony Ericsson Z610i recently. Not sure why, I seems to get drawn to PDA devices. xD

So far, these 3 are my main concerns.

*Eyes turn to D810*

Carolyna

The song so feel like myself.. Hahaha xD
Certain verses, of course.. not all

Carolyna

Melanie C

Just another girl with a dream in her heart
Wanna make a new start with a fire inside of her
She had to go

She couldn’t stay around, everybody let her down
Stole the light and the life and the child inside of her
She’s so alone

Running for the train
Take her far away from everything she knows
And the way they make her feel
She leaves today

Never look back never lose track already strong
She’s seen too much at seventeen
The past will fade with the future that she craves

[Chorus]

Carolyna you travel so far
Trying to escape the pain, start again where you are
Carolyna you keep following your star
Nobody said you’re beautiful, you’re beautiful the way you are

Finally you’re free where you long to be
But it won’t take long till hits reality
The streets are cold

Big, bad city gonna eat you up
Hard to survive, hard to keep your sanity
Still feeling low
But she’s never going home

Chorus

She tries to rest
All she needs is a warm caress
All she wants is happiness

Chorus x2

Carolyna

Yo~

Forget about the previous post..

Yo~ It's been a very long time since the last time I updated this space of mine. xD

A lot of things had happened recently. Bitter and sweet things. Occassionally, some extra "spices" to spice things up. Too many things and I had hard time digesting all of it. I think I had enough of rest already. Too much rest and too much time for me to think of unnecessary things.

Lucky for me, I have supportive friends around me. I have just realised, the term "friend" is very subjective. If you ask me to describe how subjective it is, erm.. I can't put it in words.

After all the things that happened recently, I've learnt a few new things.

Side-note:

Mel C got a new single out!! LOL! Gonna grab it! Wahahahaa xD

Leave me alone!

Just leave me alone! I think I am better off alone.

Unsmooth-ly June

First and foremost, forgive my English!

June's definitely not my month. A lot of things happened. Sad memories will be revisiting me. Apart from that, some extra "seasonings" to "spice" things up.

After all these years, I've learnt to let go and free myself a bit. Not 100% though but at least I feel a lot happier than before. There are still a lot of things to be learnt. Learn how to treat myself better (a Baskin-Robbins a week, perhaps), how to listen to my own heart, ... It might be a little bit late but I think it's time for me to seek the purpose(s) of my life. Currently, I am leading a no-direction kinda life. I'm going wherever things lead me to. Do you realise, as you grow older, you're getting more headache? Hah! x_x

Don't mind me. I'm day-dreaming here. Forget what I've wrote up there.

"Smile" and "Be Happy" - as my friends told me recently.
"Think of me and you'll be happy" - is a phrase I feel very reluctant to put up here.

You know who you are and I sincerely thank you.
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! WAHAHAHAHAHA~ xD

Love,
*ph*

Bypass MegaUpload

Have you ever:

Feel happy and overjoyed when you found a download link to your favorite songs/clips/movies.. and then... Frustrated when MegaUpload tells you the available slots for Malaysia has been used up and prompted you to download their so-called toolbar?

I have no idea why MegaUpload is so popular among the Internet users. Most of the songs, especially those Japanese, Korean, programs are uploaded there but unable to download unless you are willing to take the risk of downloading and installing their toolbar onto your system.

Blame yourself for being in Malaysia!

Well, there is a way to bypass this slot limitation and toolbar installing. I've tried and and it worked! Just follow the instructions below:

FOR MOZILLA FIREFOX

1. Go to https://addons.mozilla.org/en-US/firefox/addon/59
2. Install the add-on
3. Restart Firefox
4. Go to Tools > User Agent Switcher > Options > Options
5. On the left tab, select User Agents
6. Click on Add button
7. On the Description, type "MEGAUPLOAD" (without the quotes)
   On the User Agent, type "Mozilla/4.0 (compatible; MSIE 6.0; Windows NT 5.1; SV1; Alexa Toolbar)"
8. Click OK and OK
9. Restart Firefox

FOR INTERNET EXPLORER

Tested using IE7. Note: Steps below navigates through the Registry, please follow the instructions carefully. I will not take the responsibility if you navigate to other sections and messed up with your registry.

1. Got to Start > Run, type "regedit"
   This will prompt your Registry Editor
2. Navigate through the tree-list.. HKEY_LOCAL_MACHINE\SOFTWARE\Microsoft\Windows\Curr entVersion\Internet Settings\5.0\User Agent\Post Platform
3. Right-click and select "New > String Value"
4. Type "Alexa Toolbar" and click OK
5. Restart IE

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Surname

The Origin of Surname - Su (蘇)

三苏是文坛上的名人，关于苏姓的族谱，在苏洵族谱的后录上交代得非常清楚：“苏氏之先，出于高阳，高阳之子曰称，称之子曰 老童，老童生重黎及吴回，重黎为帝喾火正曰祝融，以罪诛，其后为司马氏，而其弟吴回复为火正，吴回生陆终，陆终生子六人，长曰矾，为昆吾，次曰惠连，为岑 胡，……为彭祖，次曰来言，为会人，次曰安，为曹姓，季曰季连，为芈姓。六人者，皆有后，其后，各分为娄姓，昆吾始姓已氏，其后为苏、顾、温、董。当夏之 时，昆吾为诸侯伯，历商而昆吾之后无闻。至周有忿生为司寇，能平刑以教百姓，周公称之，盖书所谓司寇苏公者也，司寇苏公与檀伯达皆封于河，世世仕周，家于 其封，故河南、河内皆有苏氏。”

实际上，这一段苏姓姓源考据，是可以适用于天下的苏姓的，因为，《姓纂》上关于苏姓的来源，也做了同样的介绍。《姓纂》是这样说的：“颛顼祝融之后，陆终生昆吾，封苏，邺西苏城是也。苏忿生为周司寇，居河内、扶风、武功。汉，苏建目河内徙扶风。”

由此可见，头一个以苏为姓的昆吾，是颛顼帝的后代，他们最初的发源地，则在今河南省临漳县的西方。到了周朝初年，官拜大司寇的苏忿生被周天子封于河 内，所以这个家族也就是迁移到今为甘肃省的河内地方，继续繁荣滋长，以后子孙才逐渐遍布于各地，四川眉山那个光辉灿烂的苏家，自然也是从河内所迁移出来 的。

苏姓，真可以说是一个光耀史册的古老姓氏，从3000年前的春秋时代，便已大放光芒。大家都知道，楚庄王是春秋五霸之一，而他之得成霸业，主要靠的是他的大夫苏从。

苏秦，名气更加响亮，他与张仪同被称为纵横家，他提倡合纵以抗秦，结果身佩六国相印，荣宗耀祖，显赫异常。

到了汉武帝之时，苏氏又出了一位名垂千古不朽的伟大人物，那就是三尺孩童都晓得的苏武。

宋代的文坛，似乎是苏姓人士的天下，除了苏洵、苏轼、苏辙父子之外，尚有以文章知名，宋太宗曾御笔题赠“玉堂之署”4个字的苏易简；以及慷慨有大志，好为古文诗歌，曾佐欧阳修变文格，晚年自号“沧浪翁”，隐读以终，著有《苏学士集》传世的一代高士苏子美（舜钦）等。

(extracted from 福建鄉音）

Genius Mom

My parents are going to meet my future sister-in-law's parents tomorrow. It would be the first time both meeting up. My mom asked me if I want to go. I jokingly answered, "If she has a brother to introduce, I wouldn't mind going." Such a boring meeting, I would rather die. My mom will too but she is very clever. She invited Aunt Shirley along to the dinner and Aunt Shirley is not stupid either. She asked, "I'm not meeting my in-law, why should I go?" But she's going anyway. I asked my mom why and she said in case there is nothing to talk about, at least she has someone to talk to. =.="

No wonder I am so clever! (pun intended)

Quit?

First day of work since my not-very-long CNY holiday and I am thinking about quitting! LOL.. what kind of employee am I?
In fact, I have been hunting for a new job for some time already.

Since Chinese New Year, everyone has been telling me that I can't quit my current job this year. They said, if I quit and found a new job, the new employer will treat me like how my previous employer did. Well, I told them nevermind because my current boss has been treating me good except for his inhuman (in the sense that he's not behaving, think or talk like us - the normal human) behavior. Wahahaha~

I'm seeing a lot of rotten mandarin oranges flying towards me.. ;-p

Technical Support

I hate technical support.. the job.
I salute technical support.. the people.

It is part of my job function to help and guide my clients on certain things. I wouldn't want to tell you what am I doing exactly. Sorry for being so secretive. It's P&C. Hee..

It is a project that I am handling which involves some technical things. It gave a lot of troubles to my client.. and also to me. I had been receiving calls from them for 2 days straight. E-mail messages had been flying between both parties. The problem: the solution we offered does not meet the client's requirements. This is when I understand why SDLC is so important and lecturers had been emphasizing this so much.

All I was doing.. apologising, repeatly, everytime I picked up the phone. At the end, we had to revert everything back to its previous state and the client had to consult its previous supplier. If you ask me, I'd put 99% blame on my boss. He made assumption too soon. I'd say he is a very self-centered bloody salesman who knows nothing about IT and yet is in IT business. He never listen when people are explaining to him.. technically. Back to topic. He should at least enquire about the client's current infrastructures and their network configuration before jumping into conclusion.

When everything was set and running, clients.. at the end, are yelling at us and NOT him. The most thing that he's most capable of - praise (aka shine their shoes) the clients and then call them fuckers or bitches behind their back. I was so frustrated that I had to go all the way to their office in Kota Kemuning. For what? Just for show, that we did try to solve the problem when we are very certain that everything will be revert back to previous state.

That's why I hate salesman!

5th Day of CNY

From this day onwards, it would be very boring until next week. Why? I'm HOME ALONE!! Well, my brother is in but in or not in, does not make any difference. My parent has boarded the flight to Phnom Penh with Aunt Shirley and Uncle Low.

Precious friends!! I'm not as Home Alone as Macaulay Culkin. Speaking of him, I miss those Home Alone sequels.

My friends and I went for movie at Cineleisure, The Curve. Hate to walk passed Nike store. Purchased two pieces of tee but I do really like Nike. Hee.. After the movie, Dicky sent me home first while the rest went for lunch (or dinner?). I had chores to do. There was badminton session tonight too.

4th Day of CNY

Setting off to Genting in the morning. Had brunch at Gohtong Jaya. Quite a full brunch indeed, fish, vege, meat. Genting was packed with human being on that day. I bet those uncles and aunties were betting their luck there. No wonder the roads are so new. My family has been saying that my grandma must've contributed a few kilometres of that newly-built road! xD

Kinda hard to find parking spot. Luckily we managed to find one.. near the exit. Good thing is, we don't have to circle too many floors to get out of the parking lot. Bad thing is, we had to climbed 7-8 floors of stairs! *breathless*

First stop - bowling. We were betting, again. We were divided into 2 teams. The losing team - Each team member has to contribute $10 each on our next meal. I was not aware of the result and I guess my team had won because no one ask me for $10!! *muahahaha* By the way, I sucks at bowling. I guess the balls I was using lurveeee the drain.

I saw many capsule-dwelling machines just outside the bowling centre. Whole row of those. Briefly scanned it, hope to see something I want and guess what... I saw Keroro Gunsou's machine!! Wanted to get one but too bad I have no idea where is the token exchange counter. So, I gave up! T_T

Second stop - karaoke and casino. The girls were heading to the ktv while the guys were going to try their luck. Complaints! The service was damn bad, worse that Redbox Sg. Wang!! I will never, ever step my foot inside this ktv, EVER! Duh~ don't want to talk about it anymore.

Took a breeze outside and a few shots of photo before heading back to our cars. We had our dinner at a restaurant in Menjalara and had 'lou sang'. Everyone was pretty drained out. After the dinner, we went to Amanda's house. Well, you guessed it! Again, a table of Rummy and a table of Mahjong. And again, I sucks at Rummy so I was at that Mahjong table. Oh, and not again. I had won $5 that night. Wahaha~

3th Day of CNY

I had dinner with friends somewhere in Kepong Baru. After the dinner, they planned to go to my house.

Sometimes, I do feel very hilarious whenever I have visitors to my house. Why? Because of my dog. He is a very good dog. Good in the sense of he's barking at unfamiliar people and everyone is scared of him. Well, I have a brother and a father to blamed. The dog is chained but the chain is so long until he's able to sleep next to the entrance but there are still abundance of space for people to go in. Too bad, people are just too scared. He's just too adorable!

We had a few rounds of "In Between" of 50 cents bet each round. Forgot who won the most. After that, we had a table of Rummy game and a table of Mahjong. I was at the Mahjong table, not very familiar with Rummy though. Too many colours and tiles. @.@

Not to brag, I have a very good "table" manner. Wahaha~
I lost about RM18. This guy friend of mine keep getting the wildcard and won a few games. Nah~ I don't hate him. In fact, winning and losing is the norm of gambling but we do not gamble! WE ARE PLAYING. *grin*
Well, everyone was preparing to leave at 12am but they stayed to discuss about tomorrow's plan to Genting. How many people are going, how many cars to take, etc.

That's for today~

Gong Xi Fa Cai!

An early new year's wish to everyone! Gong Xi Fa Cai! Wishing you.. Year Year Got Fish, Step Step High Rise! Muahahaha~ Actually that would be wishing you "abundance of joy every year and be successful in every steps you take". Well, that was a rough translation.

This year is my year! *Oink!* Not a very good year for piggies though but hopefully it's not BAD.

The mood and preparations this year were pretty slow and quiet. I can't see lanterns, decorations until the last 2-3 weeks before new year. Usually we can see decorations, new year songs being played 2 months ahead before the new year. I actually do not expect this year to be a merry or noisy year as our Bolehland's Gs has imposed a RM100 fine on-the-spot for those illegally setting off firecrackers. Plain NBTD. It just give those blue-shirt an excuse to drink more kopi. Economy has not been very promising and I don't expect to get as much as previous years either.

Now, my schedule? I had my reunion lunch at my old house in Jinjang. This year, I will be having reunion dinner would be at my Aunt Lily's house at Kota Damansara. They are celebrating their first Chinese New Year in their new house. xD

Well, need to go prepare now.

Jaa ne~

Immune system.. down?

My body's immune system is not as good as I used to be. I'm getting sick easily nowadays. Most probably due to those stress I'm receiving from a whole bunch of sick-minded and brain-at-the-ass people. Or maybe germs has been floating around in the office since everyone was coughing like there is no tomorrow.. "openly". They are very generous indeed.

uwah~~ feel dizzy.. @.@

Say NO to “Eat & Drive”! v2

This evening when I reached home from work. My brother told me that everything was settled. Remember my last post, the boyfriend of the Kenari's owner. I'd really like to call him a bastard! Well, I was wrong for not driving with my eyes wide open but he's definitely an advantage-taker and a bladdy money-sucker! I'm regretting for not taking the photographs of that Kenari's conditions!

He actually called my brother on his handphone since he can't reached me on mine. He demanded RM300 of compensation which I think I would need that RM300 more than he. That Kenari? I've only spotted 2 small dent marks on the rear bumper and the rear door, cracked number plate. PERIOD. Mine?

&^@!*%##^!@^#@

Say NO to "Eat & Drive"!

"Unlucky" came and pay me a New Year visit!

Last week, I accidentally reversed my car to a very dark Proton Saga parked behind mine. Perhaps I was too happy that I had won a few extra bucks that night (4 in the morning to be exact). Couldn't see the car behind. When I heard a 'Bang!', I thought I hit a waste bin. Stepped out and I was like "Oh, my God!" Never thought that it would be a car. But a little luck was at my side. No major damage though apart from my right reverse sensor, which was broken and not functioning properly.

This morning, while on my way to work and burying my teeth onto the peanut bread.. "BANG!" the car in front. It's a brand new Kenari bearing the plate with the letter "WPM". Imagine how brand new it was. No major damage on that Kenari instead my own car gave me a big shock.

No mood for the whole day.