Awkward

She was admitted for a cyst removal operation yesterday. I paid her a visit just now. Reached there around 9:30pm, everyone else was already there. They are surprised to see me but I am not sure if she is, at least I thought they were. Except for the "Hi", basically I was just standing there hiding behind someone and watched the TV. Everyone else were talking and I just stood there. I am not sure if my presence brings any meaning. I wanted to say something but don't know why it just can't come out.

On the way home, I was speeding like no body's business. Many things are running around in my mind and suddenly tears are bursting out. Don't ask me why.

To you-know-who,

Sorry if you will feel better without me coming at all. Sorry for not talking more than I did. I'd sincerely hope for your speedy recovery, the best pink of health and no more surgeries.