A Depressed Introvert

Yeah, I am an introvert! An extreme one too. I am alone, isolated on a no-man island and I am living in my own world. I'd prefer "talking" to this blog for the most of the time. I don't like going out in a big crowd. If I do, I will always be the one walking behind. I don't like to go on a gathering.

Recently, I've wrote a lot about my thoughts and feelings. You see, one's feeling can be very complicated. We don't understand why people feeling sad or troubled. I guess that is normal as we are not a mind reader unless they tell us themselves. Have you not able to apprehend why you are feeling sad and what are troubling you? Or you have something to tell but you do not know whom to tell and how to tell. Things seem to be stuck at your throat/mind. At the end, other people will not know what and how you are feeling.

Some people often feels difficult dealing or talking with someone like me. It is very hard to get me straight to the point. You can talk to me for more than an hour and yet still not able to get what you want. I am an ordinary human too. I do enjoy attention, if it is coming itself. When people do care, we reject. It is such a dilemma. Maybe people like me are living in dilemma.

More recently after the new year, I'd feel the gap or distance between people around me and myself are getting big and bigger. We are no longer like we used to be. The connections are still there but communication and interaction are getting less and lesser. Sometime, it will make you think that it feels better to be alone from the beginning. It will not hurt so much when things are changing because you will not know what is the feeling to have friends around you thus you will not know what to feel when it is happening.

I am a very depressed introvert.. and I don't need help and sympathies. Thank you.